FAITH x FITNESS: When Healing Meets Movement
For most of my life, fitness wasn’t healthy.
It wasn’t holy.
It wasn’t joyful.
It was obsession.
Compulsion.
Punishment disguised as discipline.
A desperate attempt to control a body I didn’t feel at home in.
I didn’t grow up learning how to honor my body — I learned how to fight it.
How to shrink it.
How to earn space by working harder than everyone else around me.
How to run from pain through performance.
And like so many women, I carried that into adulthood without ever questioning it.
I thought that was normal.
I thought I was the problem.
Eating disorders.
Body dysmorphia.
Exercise addiction.
The constant pressure to keep going because stopping felt like failure.
I lived inside that cycle for years.
But at 30, something unexpected happened:
I moved to Minnesota.
I thought I was just changing states.
But God was changing me.
Because in Minnesota, the compulsion broke.
Not through a dramatic moment or rock-bottom revelation…
but through quiet healing.
I walked.
That’s it.
Just walked.
And those walks did something no gym ever could:
They let my nervous system breathe.
They made movement feel like freedom instead of fear.
They turned exercise from a punishment into peace.
I didn’t know it then, but God was using that season to rewire me.
He wasn’t trying to make me “fit.”
He was trying to make me whole.
THE SHIFT: FROM SELF-FOCUSED TO GOD-LED
For years, my fitness was about:
changing my body
earning worth
controlling something
chasing a standard I never reached
Now?
Fitness is about stewardship — not obsession.
About caring for the body God entrusted to me.
About treating this vessel with love, not loathing.
About having the strength to live long enough to walk out the calling He’s placed on my life.
This wasn’t a pivot into fitness.
This was a pivot into freedom.
And when freedom enters, everything changes.
THE HEART OF FAITH x FITNESS
Faith x Fitness isn’t a program.
It’s not a challenge or a trend or a “new year, new me” moment.
It’s a return.
A realignment.
A relearning of the truth God has been whispering all along:
Your body is not an enemy to dominate.
Your body is a gift to steward.
Fitness is no longer about:
punishment
perfection
pressure
comparison
shrinking
proving
Now it’s about:
longevity
strength
clarity
mental health
healthy rhythms
obedience
honoring God through action
This is ministry through motion.
This is letting God into the one area I tried to control the most.
This is choosing healing over hustle.
WHY I’M LAUNCHING THIS NOW
Because I know I’m not the only woman who has lived this story.
I know I’m not the only one who:
abused workouts
feared rest days
counted calories obsessively
looked in the mirror and saw a distorted version of reality
believed smaller meant better
believed exhaustion meant success
And I also know I’m not the only one God is calling back into balance.
Back into freedom.
Back into joy.
Faith x Fitness is an invitation —
not to “get fit,”
but to get free.
To move your body in a way that honors the One who made it.
To heal the relationship you have with health.
To lay down shame and pick up stewardship.
To strengthen the vessel that carries your calling.
THIS IS MY MINISTRY NOW
Not because I’m perfect.
Not because I’m a trainer.
Not because I “have it all figured out.”
But because I’m living proof that God can take a lifetime of broken body image…
and turn it into a testimony of restoration.
He didn’t ask me to become an expert.
He asked me to become available.
Faith x Fitness is my offering.
My obedience.
My yes.
I’m not waiting for Monday.
I’m not waiting for motivation.
I’m not waiting for validation.
I’m starting today — and you can too.
